We all come with a story and a history. The aim of sharing mine has only ever been one thing:

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‘To Inspire’

In 2019, I was a mess. Decades of alcoholism, prescription drug dependence, and food addiction had taken their toll. At my heaviest I was 20 stone, and the only way I knew how to manage my body was through pills and self-sabotage.

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My mobility was deteriorating. I lived in a cycle of waiting, waiting for scans, for surgery, for answers, while battling constant health anxiety. I couldn’t get out of bed without multiple medications and help from my husband. Then came the wake up call. I was forced to take a year off work, and in that space, I was faced with a stark choice: live or die.

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I knew my childhood trauma was at the root of so much of this, so I went searching. I immersed myself in psychology, driven by one simple idea; that I could rewire my brain. Neuroplasticity became my focus, my lifeline. I made the biggest and best decision of my life: I stopped being a victim and took responsibility for my health. The truth was, I was completely disconnected from my body. I didn’t know who I was.

That’s when Pilates found me.

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I started in a classical studio, working on equipment. I could barely move. In the beginning, my teacher could only guide me through breathwork. I was locked in fear of pain, convinced that movement would make everything worse. But slowly, patiently, she helped me move—without pain.

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She was in her 70s, with the body of a ballet dancer, moving like a swan. She had severe scoliosis and had turned to Pilates to avoid becoming a hunchback. Watching her, I saw what was possible. And something shifted in me—I became hooked.

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As I committed to the practice, everything began to change. I stopped drinking. Over the course of a year, I came off 10 prescription drugs I had been dependent on. In their place, I discovered breathwork, meditation, energy medicine, and the right therapeutic support for childhood trauma.

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Pilates reconnected my mind and body in a way nothing else had. It wasn’t just movement—it was healing.

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Within a year, I was free from addiction. I’ve now lived holistically for over five years, grounded in practices that support both mental and physical wellbeing, alongside a deep appreciation for Buddhist philosophy.

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My teacher saw something in me before I saw it in myself. She encouraged me to train, to become a Pilates teacher. So I went to London and trained with Polestar, one of the world’s leading schools, known for its foundation in movement science and rehabilitation.

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I graduated in February 2025. It wasn’t easy.

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Through the training, I realised how much I had missed growing up. I never played as a child. I didn’t go to school in the early years. I’d never sat cross-legged, never played sports. When I eventually entered school at 15, I was laughed at—I couldn’t run, ride a bike, throw a ball, or understand team games. I avoided movement altogether because of the bullying and the shame.

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So this journey has never just been about recovery—it’s been about discovery.

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Pilates has given me mobility I never knew I had. I’m still working, still rebuilding, still learning. There’s decades of damage to undo, but I won’t stop practising or trying. I still can’t do a handstand—but I will, one day.

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Now, I love movement. I explore it in many forms, including Feldenkrais and trauma-informed somatic yoga. Movement is no longer something I fear—it’s something I trust.

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My aim now is simple: to help others heal their relationship with themselves through the power of Pilates.

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I don’t see myself as part of the fitness industry. I’m a natural healer, with 40 years in western medicine, who found healing in ways that medicine alone never taught me.

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There is no quick fix for long-term suffering. But there is a way to reconnect—to bring the mind and body back together.

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And when you do, the body has an incredible capacity to heal itself.

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'Movement heals the mind and body'